Sunday, May 30, 2004

Peaceful serenity
Its like a soft breeze
that blows your hair
ever so gently
ever so soothingly.

Zealous youth
Its like a candy cane
that has pretty stripes
on its outside
its taste?
sweeet.
you never want it to end

True happiness
Its like a balloon
so easy to blow up,
the more you blow
the bigger a balloon you get
then again, with just a prick
all of it goes disappears

Undying love
Its like playing the piano
you put all your emotion
and effort into it
play it like you're fondling
your very own sweetheart,
play it like
you're never going to be able
to see it again
every note,
melodic or harmonic,
they fuse to form
pure beauty
music to the ears
are like
the words of a lover's heart
they're beautiful
just beautiful.

Posted by Jamie at Sunday, May 30, 2004

i added music to this blog:) its kinda sweet i think. really nice music. oh yes, and the cursor too:).. haha
Enjoy.


Posted by Jamie at Sunday, May 30, 2004

Saturday, May 29, 2004

fralalalala
i stride in the sun like there's no tomorrow
thinking of you
how you sent the chill down my spine
how you dish smiles onto my face
how you make me laugh at your charming ways
and how
you're so far away.

then i see you walking
walking towards me
a rose in hand
you give me that look
and i feel myself melting

you're now only a few steps away
i stay paralysed
rooted to where i am
gazing at you
suddenly the whole world around me
just seems to fade into bright light
we stand there
locked in each other's gaze
holding it boldly
you take a step closer
and i reach out to touch your hand

then suddenly
you disappear
leaving the rose behind
i look around me and realise

i realise that
i cant stop thinking of you

till today,
the scent of the sweet rose
stays in my heart.
though the petals have withered
and fallen onto the ground
its beauty and the beauty of love
looms within me
it looms and always will
till the end of time

Posted by Jamie at Saturday, May 29, 2004

swing swing
bring me a pair of wings
to depend on
to show the world i care

and so the escapade ends,
there's bound to be more.
the best is yet to be
but
The worst is yet to come.

So what do you say?
shall we catch a trip
to the moon on a banana boat?
Or shall we settle with
two regular lattes under the
spanish sun?

I'm hidden in the shadows
no one can see through me
we've met only once
and yet your comprehension,
it just sweeps me off my feet.

Dazzled
caught in confusion,
no one can see through me
I'm a film of rice paper
that encases a tasty treat-
- the thin membrane
that dissolves from
the sweet intoxicating touch
of your tongue.
It is the hidden sweetness that
lies within me,
everyone searches for it
but they forget
that they need to probe deeper
into their comphrehension
to unfold my sweet secret.
Then again,
no one can see through me.

Or can you?

i love it when you dont get what im trying to say
its just not meant to be known.

Posted by Jamie at Saturday, May 29, 2004

Monday, May 17, 2004

Things i wish i could tell you:

that there's always this gleam in your eyes
that you always seem to be there, just there
that when my life falls down on me, i fall on you
that you bring joy and erase my grief
that i cant stop recounting that eventful day
that everytime you probe deeper, i raise my sheild
that each time you ask, i deny anything that matters
that when i say something, you comprehnd
that you can see right through me

Why is it
that whenever i reach out
you refuse to open out?

Why is it
that you seem so near
yet so far?

Why is it
that everytime an oppurtunity comes my way
i let it slip by?

It seems as if there's this written rule
that if things dont go your way in life,
they dont go anywhere.
And that when they're supposed to be this way
they turn out another way.

So buy me tickets
to the eight-coloured rainbow
and come,
come catch the falling stars with me
Let me show you how
to flamenco along with me
Sing the song of a lifetime
to me
and let me hum along

Sometimes you reach out to me like you need me desperately
Then sometimes you slap me tightly on my cheek
Sometimes you embrace my oh-so lovingly
Then you push me away and turn your back on me
What is it you want?
My trust? Or my suspicion?

Things that once meant something to me
have lost their truth
Things that once made me laugh
now wipe the smile off my face
Things that once kept me alive
can now make me wither and die
Things that once brought me peace
now cause this raging sensation within

She said I was her sunshine
after the rain.
He told me
that I brought him pain.
Something tells me
its not what i really want
to hear.
Then I ask myself
Why am I going through all this?
For what am I putting myslef through all this?
What is this?

Is this
what i think it is?
Is this
an optical illusion?
Is this
something that is worth dying for?

What makes the world go round?
Love? - Nay
pressure? - perhaps
This?
- oh yeah.
I've got it.

I'll just stick a stalk of roses up you nose
and tell you
to have yourself a fine day today.

Posted by Jamie at Monday, May 17, 2004

Oh.My.Heavens.
*screams*
Dance girls dancing for the Cherish Award get to miss ALL
-Yes ALL
ALL post-exam activities!
*falls on ground*
that totally rocks my socks!
we found out when ms wong told us
and for once, though you'll never live
long enough to say this, but
yes, Mr Gau rocks.
i know, i hear many poor girls fainting
and gasping in shock
but hey, he was the one that allowed us to!
whoohoo.:)
okay, thats it. im never saying that again.
zippityzip.
anyways, we danced and danced from like 8 to 6?
we had lotsa fun, being in an air-conditioned room
almost the whole time.
when it told the c2 girls they were like
so angry they could have killed me :erm. hee.:)
then we had the oppurtunity
to walk around the school barefooted!
yeah, and we could go out to the canteen
in between when it was all quiet and peaceful
haha, yeah.
then we had to try on our make up and stuff,
lotsa screaming and noise with the band girls,
ms wong and dance girls.
Alicia is so good at vandalizing herself.
she had streaks of eyeshadow and lipstick and
i dunno what else on her hand
and then we finally decided on the eyeshadow
from the danceyboxy:)
yeah, the practice at the club.
TIRING. the carpeted stage was so hard to dance on
but what can i say?
We were really good:)
(we rock yes girls?)
yeah, then made alot of corrections
and the last dance was almost PERFECT.
whoh. wow. really really good:)
Even ms shervon was clapping!
oh yeah, she kept acting like a mysterious woman
(crap her!)
and ARHHH!
my stoopid shirt kept coming out!!
as in it totally revealed my tummy and abs!
[even Mrs lee was laughing, and Mr gau too!:P]
arhh! and you all-
stares at dancers-
they kept laughing like mad and saying
some stopid nonsense about adding safetypins
from my shirt to my underwear.
HARHAR. verrry funnaye.
hrmph.:(
bleagh, was so silly anyways.
even ginny, peiyi, and phyliss were laughing like crazy
and trying to lift my shirt!
oh the horrors!!!
ooofh.
then crapped the whole trip back on the bus
along with ms shervon.
you KNOW how crazy she can get
*rolls eyes*
anyways, cant wait for tomorrow:p
a whole great dy again!
cheerios for now:)

Posted by Jamie at Monday, May 17, 2004

Sunday, May 16, 2004

~I was an enthusiastic little girl at the age of seven,
fumbling with the elastic bands
of those puny ballet shoes- my very first ones.
As the years flew by,
I soon outgrew those shoes,
advancing from elastics to fine satin ribbons,
at the same time, I advanced to greater heights in ballet,
my grace and elegance pulling me through examinations,
one after another. I never gave up, strenuous as it was,
my passion for dance keeping me alive and ever-awaiting
to improve and better my standards.

To me, dance is expressing through movement,
feeling the moves and steps coming naturally to you
after months of hard labour, practicing day and night,
aiming for perfection from the slightest angle of your arm
to the expression to be carried on your face.
A graceful figure swaying
with such elegance to the rhythm
of the glorious music?
A lonely shadow
on the stage along with her forlorn expression,
taking a step in every beat,
body poised in such a pitiful manner?
Or the vibrant pulse of the powerful music
surging through the audience
as the dancers on stage dance
with a fresh burst of energy in every move,
carrying their brilliant smiles
while spreading the cheery mood
and really having a good time themselves?

You see, dance itself extends its fields vastly.
I simply love the feeling of going up on stage,
just moving to the music naturally,
feeling the audiences’ admiration and their absorption in our dance.
Simple as it may seem when watching from an audience’s view,
the process and the rocky road to excellence is never a rose bed.
Behind the graceful figure on stage is the exhausting training,
the many muscle aches,
and the countless hours of continuous practice
in search for perfection.
Under those slender legs of the dancer
are the blistered feet
and the bandaged toes
that have the power to elevate the entire body mass
in one graceful lift after years of undaunted practice.
A driven soul,
a persevering heart,
self-discipline and true passion
are the vital tools a dancer must have
to carry on without any regret and complaint.
Dance is my solace and my treasure.

And nothing can take that away from me.

Posted by Jamie at Sunday, May 16, 2004

So many things to tell you,
oh i wish i had the time.
Unfortunately i don't.
Sorry.

Dance on Friday*
-crazy
-we the eight worldwonders just rawk
i mean, we finished learning the WHOLE dance in those few hours!
(someone clap?!) haha, yeah, went home aching like crazy.

Dance on saturday*
-dead fatal
-woke up early in the morning,
lay on my bed wondering why the heck my butt
and my whole body felt so sore.
-went for dance at 9, had a great practice with the band
and my my, are the the parents cute:)
they were so funny,
miss wong looked cute shaking that,
that instrument thingy
(sorry, really dont know what its called)
and we were so tired and sweaty and exhausted
after four hours of dance.
-worked my butt out for the rest of the day
-boring and dry i tell you.. just boring
(urgh)

Sunday*
-Church was fun, as always:)
Like since when wasnt it?? haha
(actually during service though, cell was BORING)
yeah, and mel and noella kept singing drunkedly at the end
and i was laughin my head off.
We were makin alotta noise about Andrew zee being too tall!
It was as if We were trying to see the stage
from behind the empire state building or something..
blah. crappy crappy crappy.

Then I worked my freaking butt out in the afternoon
AGAIN
boring, boring, dead boring AND sickening i tell you
boy, what a way to spend your post exam weekend huh?
*rolls eyes*
like, thanks ALOT mom. you rock my world what.
Urgh.
anyways, went to the park with Nic and Joyce
got ms wong to tag along.
We crapped for a LONG LONG time
and we were screaming like maddies in the park
while playing badminton..
then we went to the sandpit
and went bonkers over this cute little cup-thingy
which spins you absolutely dizzy..
*barf*
haha, and nic was like doing her
"Mercy mercy oh mercy"
argh. that woman is beathing my air!
yes, nic, if you're reading this,
its MY air you're breathing!
MINE! MINE! MINE!
haha.
Then miss wong came with her sis
this i'll have to say,
they dont look the least bit alike!
anyways, we were playing on the sandpit
and ms wong was really funny
too many things fo me to pour out here,
but trust me, she was mad alright.
she managed to hold her composure for a wee-bit of time
but ah, what can i say?
with Nic and I, the sistars crazy,
there's no composure-holding possible
*wink wink* (NICOLEEE!)
anyways, we played badminton after that
and we were screaming like crazy
having nic and i making up seriously stoopid
theories of why we missed the shuttle-cork and what not.
Then we lasted till our eyes were watered with tears
and our throats were finally sore,
yes, FINALLY. and then we said bye to nic
and we all walked the other direction..
miss wong when across the road
and joyce and i went back home
oh home sweet home:)
was so tired and sandy all over
because of SOME smart person who
suggested we play that crzy sandcircle game
argh, NIC. you're gonna get it from me..
wait till i box your face!!!
*aboosh*

haha, okies, alotta crap up there,
i promise i'll write soon,
when?
im not so sure..

[dance tomorrow, we're leaving at 12:30pm!~we get to miss the post-exam activities!!!:)]

Chaos to all!!:)

::i swear to tell the truth, nothing but the truth::

Posted by Jamie at Sunday, May 16, 2004

Thursday, May 13, 2004

Hmm.
art. art? art.
sigh, art.
dance tomorrow, cant wait.
how long has it been since
my last split?
why,
its not >180degress no more.
sigh.
Cartwheels, frontflips?
cant do multiples without getting
the mogg in my head.
im just glad some things havr cleared
Somethings.

you guys will never understand me.

Posted by Jamie at Thursday, May 13, 2004

Alas! The main papers are over.
Cant rejoice for too long.
There's the class barbaque on,
the application
the dance practices
the performance at Raffles Hotel
argh.
Ah well, as everyone knows it,
life such a straw
it sucks.

tatas:)

Posted by Jamie at Thursday, May 13, 2004

Sunday, May 09, 2004

This I've got to say
- Dreamweaver rocks.
You can tell can't you?
sigh:)


Posted by Jamie at Sunday, May 09, 2004

Friday, May 07, 2004

do i hate you?
or do i hate you?
i hate you.

ms tan's birthday was rather
-wild?
err. wayy wild more rather.
pretended that amanda fng wasnt feeling well,
turned out that Amanda lim really blacked out.
*shrugs*
ah well, when she came in she was kinda freaked out
by amanda and her state, though amanda cleared out
and we stopped blocking that HUGE chocolate cake.
*whines* its SO yummy.
then Ms tan was flabbergausted and she started laughing:)
then we sang her the Happy Birthday song -
-CRESCENT STYLE *wink wink*
and we were screaming our heads out xD
and then yush, esh, nurul and i fingered some cream
from the side of the cake and smeared it over ms tan!
- BOY can she scream loud. Wha.ha.ha
yepps. then at the same time,
anna, sar and i dont know who sprayed
those 'crazy ribbons' all over ms tan:)
it was on her hair, her pants, her neck, her face-
you name it, they sprayed it!
then dearest yusheng and i took ice cubes each
and slid it down ms tan's shirt!!!!
wheehee. revenge is sweeeet.
it was payback time from last year's christmas party:P
oh well, the whole class was screaming when that
POHSHUZHEN sprayed the ribbon contently at us
from sitting oh-so-lady-like on the table.
thanks shuzhen. You rock what.:)
and some stoooopid fella smeared ceam on MY face
oh my GOD i was screeching.
and i think it was yusheng or ms tan or who.
I told whoever who did it to come back
and LICK IT OFF MY FACE. HAH. :D
anyways, from then, the whole class started
"Creaming" each other with the poor birthday cake
OH. and MY POOOOOR tie!! ahhhh! :(
and i can swear everyone else is gonna go back to school
on monday with THRICE and many zits they had left the party with.
HRMPH.
then sar did this really sick thing.
she stuck the crazy ribbon
[which is really cold i tell you]
under War's skirt and sprayed.
oh heavens. War screamed like there was no tomorrow.
and the rest just cried laughing.

The part was nice;)
really nice xP
i smelt so sickeningly sweet of Cream and cake.
pfft.
:)

-zit me honey

Posted by Jamie at Friday, May 07, 2004

Monday, May 03, 2004

The barriers are gone, there's no stopping me now.
My pathway is set, you're out of the way.
My vision is clear, no longer foggy or blur.
My life has been set straight, nothing's going to ruin it again.
May waffles and oats please all
who
enjoy making a living hell out
of my life.
May stale water and bitter tea be served
to those who have never tasted
the essence of misery.
For all that is what has moulded me
into what i have become
into what i am now.
Like a phoenix rising from the burning ashes
I will strike
oh trust me, i will.
when the other flames that
were once burning strong
start to die out-
yes those flames that turned me into ashes and dust-
it will be i that stays luminiscent forevermore,
for the fire burns unlike yours,
outwardly.
Its the eternal flame
the passion
the drive,
that will keep alight in my soul,
through the blizzards and the storms.
But to all out there-
just watch out.

One Luminiscent structure

Posted by Jamie at Monday, May 03, 2004