Thursday, May 29, 2008
Pre-Aristal.On a lighter note, today was kinda fun. Aside from the very crushing run we had, experiences are always worth remembering for the fun we had with them. Ecstatic screaming, laughing and singing in the underground dresing rooms, breathless dashing between items, applying our war paint disastrously on our faces for the performance runs. And of course, taking pictures.
Isn't Zhang cool? :D
My go at it! sadly, unlike zhang, i look wholly unglamorous):
two 881 singers hogging poor zhang who hates feater bowers
waiting for our run in the quickchange dressing room.
Jamie and her pimped up pet rabbit Rachew.
Calvin, zhang and i. someone looks uncannily like peter teo:P
haha, i guess every cloud has its silver lining huh? (:
Signing off,
Jamie.
Posted by Jamie at Thursday, May 29, 2008
Pre-Aristal Jitters.two feet mercilessly blistered, one swollen knee.
three months in endless fervor, one entire dance.
four years in nj, one last aristal.
This aristal has been the most turbulent yet. i fear looking up at the circles of audience knowing i've let them down. i fear every single turn i have to make on that wretched, stubborn dance floor because today i've tried. i've tried and failed. i've tried, and slipped. i've tried, and gotten stuck. i dont know what's the matter with you this aristal jamie. why can't you rise to the occasion?
Sigh.
Today admittedly, i didn't dance. I was treading cautiously, anxiously, with apprehension in every step. Everything went wrong. And i couldn't handle it. My shoe laces came loose, my vest unbuckled, i couldnt dance. But i should have been able to. I've always been able to. I just, don't know what's wrong today): and of all days, today- hours before aristal.
Sigh.
I need rest. i need to ice my knee. plaster my feet. rub my shoulder.
I need to sleep.
And pray that hopefully, tomorrow will be so much better. Months of hardwork at the mercy of six minutes on stage.
Carpe diem, seize the day.
dreaming of clearer skies,
Jamie.
Posted by Jamie at Thursday, May 29, 2008
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Finding Fortitude in Adversity.
Of all the times i could write (and dutifully haven't written), i choose to write now, amidst my suffocating common tests. It was only in the course of studying gp that i realised how much i actually miss writing. Anyway, today i wanna tell you about being able to find fortitude in adversity, when times are down and the world seems to insist on spinning the other way around, when you wonder if you're just on candid camera. Although our lives as students have only gotten tougher over the semesters, i think its really important to be able to find joy in the littlest things. Today i am grateful for a friend who has been my fortitude in dire times. I thank kim for:
Of all the times i could write (and dutifully haven't written), i choose to write now, amidst my suffocating common tests. It was only in the course of studying gp that i realised how much i actually miss writing. Anyway, today i wanna tell you about being able to find fortitude in adversity, when times are down and the world seems to insist on spinning the other way around, when you wonder if you're just on candid camera. Although our lives as students have only gotten tougher over the semesters, i think its really important to be able to find joy in the littlest things. Today i am grateful for a friend who has been my fortitude in dire times. I thank kim for:
braving the cold in the library with me while we pour over our books this common test
teaching me to keep my eye on the ball
always looking out for me from the corner of her eye
going with the flow of life when it gets cranky and going cranky along with it
teaching me to isolate myself from the cruel realities of the world
and for just being there and being my friend and fortitude in times of adversity.