Monday, September 20, 2004

Heys:) Its CS now and everyone's using this time to take a break from our stressful studies:)
Even me.
Saw our class photos and everyone looks SO so different from last years photos man!
Yusheng here behind me just added that:"its so screwed up"
Haha. cant agree any less than what least everyone think;)
Cant wait to get my dance photos:D
wheeehee.
Oh and council photos;)
OH MAN. it the one with me like falling off the bench and Yvonne and Wani and the rest grabbing onto mee whilst screamin," BABY CHIIIINN!!!"
Thanks alot mans.hah.

DANCE IS GOING TO NEW ZEALAND!!!!!!
yeahs! along with the band:)
haha. cant wait XD
wheehee. im so freaking bored.
A time of relaation turns out to be a time to brush up my slack act.
whahaha.
okies. gonna continue rotting in this room.
Its soo hot now that Lynette Tan has raised the temperature.
*boxes nett's face*
hee. okies
CHaos:D

Posted by Jamie at Monday, September 20, 2004

Thursday, September 09, 2004

what do you want from me?
what do you all want from me?

I dont get you.
I dont get her.
I dont get him.
I dont get anyone of you.

Just pisss off.
GO away.
Get out of my already-torn life.
Leave
Me
Alone.

Posted by Jamie at Thursday, September 09, 2004

Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Hey all:)
If not for my warm shoes, I think I would have lost my feet today.
T’was freeeeezing.
And we were walking more than 3km around town, down town and what not.
Though, of course, no labor results with nothing
*wink wink wink*
Hee. Got so much barang barang.
Man the stuff here is sooo good:And cheap. Or some of it anyways.
Hee. Got a new wallet.
Man, I have no idea how much money I blew on this trip
I don’t want to know anyways:P
Oops?

Hmm. Something touching that happened today…
Was walking along Swanston street. Or somewhere, some street , in town.
We were going into this Billabong shop when I heard music.
And it sounded like Christmas carols so ah…
Yea:)
I saw this old man, he had drums with himself..
Looked really shabby and raggedy…
He was sorta deformed. His neck, was… yea.
I’ll spare you all the details.
Anyway, he was drumming to the beat of those “Christmas Carols”
Rather un-rhythmically too,
But something just made me stop and watch him.
He was so deformed, so shabby and pitiful.
Yet, he was so cheery and jovial, saying
“How ya doin’ todaye mate?”
And
“Good afternoon young miss!”
But what struck me most was
His little box which read
“The Lord is my Shepard, I shall not want…”
Wow.
He was really inspirational.
I was totally stuck on him..
He was so old and pitiful, and yet his attitude towards his disability..
Wow.
I got some coins from my dad and went up to him
And immediately he (still drumming)
Smiled (rather madly, but so warmly)
At me:)
And said
“Good afternoon young Miss! How ya doin’? Pretty cold eh? Thank you luv’!”
Wow. I dunno why, but the whole gloomy afternoon seemed to go away,
And I stood there smiling at him..
So broadly in fact..
and sub-consciously I mumbled
“God bless your great attitude man..”
And he just blared
“God Bless m’ child! The Lord loves ya!”
And so I smiled (again. Again!)
And went into the Billabong shop.
When I was inside the warm warm interior of the shop,
I dunno why (again?)
But I just started tearing.
Or crying. Or whatever.
I mean, there I was inside this warm warm shop,
Actually BUYING something. Not just anything.
Something really expensive.
And that poor old man out there is putting up with the tormenting winds and cold air.
I’m moody and a lil glum.
And He’s out there being ridiculed by the rest of the society
and under-going speculation,
YET
He’s so cheery, so happy, so rejoiceful that he’s even able to live.
Wow.
That’s all I can say.

anyways, going down to the y-bar again with wennie, zack and cheech soon.
Later!

Posted by Jamie at Tuesday, September 07, 2004

Sunday, September 05, 2004

The Philosophical balance of life in Australia
Muesli+yoghurt=wonderful monday afternoon

Trinity College=real learning+cool teach'rs+yummilicious food
Albartus.com=mindbebogglement+addiction
Shopping=kewl saawwwks+uncle Freddo's ice-cream+gifts+frozen feet
Sleep=shivers+heater+simpsons' sleeping bag+bolster
Pictures=cheech+me+cheech's stufftoy kitty+crazy André
Common room=Study+Pool+Sharjan chasing André+going back at 1am.
Departion=tears+hesitance
6th Sept=Mom&Dude's wedding aniversary+dinner at whytebar+crazy parents

12th Sept=6 days from now:)

Posted by Jamie at Sunday, September 05, 2004

Friday, September 03, 2004

I read Samuel's and John's blogs...
Whoh.
Its really saddening
Especially when you see your friends in such a state
where the feeling's just too strong for words to express
the pain
the sorrow
the disappointment they feel inside.
Yes, you all know what i'm talking about.

It was only then that I realized
that I'm leaving too.
It was only then that I realized
that I'll lose my 2 years in Crescent.
It was only then that I realized
that I'd never live life the same way again.

I cant exactly say I'm depressed over the whole
I'm-leaving- Crescent- thing.
I cant exaclty say I'm elated
about leaving either.
All I know is that I'm just...
lost.

I'm sorry for the many I've made cry.
You know who you are.
At dinner table,
at the lunch table,
during recess,
at the bustop,
in the dance studio,
in the Parade square,
along the corridors...

I felt so bad when I saw you all cry.
I was lost.
I didnt know what I was supposed to do.
All I was capable of was hug you
and let you cry.

I know what want in life.
but is this what i want?

To her,
I know its been tough on you
yes, not many people understand.
A very cheery disposition you've got
but sometimes you can't keep relying on me.
I'm gonna miss
the hours we spent on the phone
in attempt of comforting you.
I'm gonna miss
the times we shared in the car,
laughing and teasing each other.
But I'm sorry.

To Her,
dear laoshi,
I'm sorry for breaking
the news to you so late.
When you spoke to me the other day
in front of the other dancers,
I almost cried.
You asked
"Who can we rely on for SYF next year?"
"Can I not let you go?"
"What's going to happen to dance?"
I was like
''... ... ..."
Thank God for Audrey.
Thanks Aud dearie.
I'm sorry.
But i think i know what i want from life.

To Her,
dear Miss Goon,
I feel horrid.
When you spoke to me
in the middle of the parade square
the other day,
I felt terrible.
She told me about what
she had expected of me next year.
I wish I could do it, and in fact,
I'm confident that we can,
If only I stayed.
But I'm not and so I can't.
I'm sorry.
I'm sure there are better councillors.
You guys can do it, I'm sure.

Lastly, to him.
I know you've been hiding it.
Or so I sense.
You try to feel happy for me
and i really want to believe you do
but
it just turns you down.
I'm sorry I have to go.
But I really need to achieve something
out of my life.
Thanks for always being there
to help me
guide me
comfort me
and make me smile.
I hope nothing has to change.
Thanks for always being there dude.

I'm sorry you all.
For the unecessary tears I've made you shed.
For the disappointment
from your expectations of me.
For having to leave some people in a lurch.
I know things are gonna be different
but hey,
good friends are always there for each other
and true friends will last for eternity
through
all
odds.

I'm sorry.




Posted by Jamie at Friday, September 03, 2004

Greetings from Aussieland people!!!
haha:)
life here's great! The weather's literally perfect and the people are really nice too:)
We were walking along the streets near Victoria Market and we saw these four dudes from mexico or somethin, playing their hearts out on the street! they were sooo cool. But there was this guy who sat outside Mac's and he played the guitar, with his doggie, a syberian husky i think. Really massive dog that one. His music was so... wow. And everyone on the streets were lulled by him and people sat around him easting their lunches, even men in suits were clapping and cheering him on! Big bro and I went up to give him some coins and he asked where we were from..then when he found out that we were from Singapore, he was trying to use the Singaporean slang of "lah" but he just plonked it in at the end of every sentence, so it was really hilarious:) haha... bought macs for wennie who apparently has been sleeping in and so now mom and dude are out at safeway to get some groceries and we're just slacking at home:)

I think i've totally forgotten that my motive of coming here was to concentrate and study...
haha:)
oh but big bro said he'd bring me down to the common room to study with his friends later at night and then we'd all go the Ole Freddo's store to get some great ice cream. Or so he claims it to be:) *mm.yum.yum.* haha...

anyways, gonna go get settled down to do some work.
okies, tarra!!!

Posted by Jamie at Friday, September 03, 2004

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

The unexamined life is not worth living.
The unlived life is not worth examining.
- Socrates.

Reflection without life is empty.
Life without reflection is blind.
- Kant.

What is life?
What do i want out of my life?
Who controls my life?



-splat-

Posted by Jamie at Wednesday, September 01, 2004